“Why don’t you write something for me”, she said.
“Hmm… Yeah! I’ll write about you someday, may be the day I’ll find right words for you”, I replied.
I always thought to write something about her but I never got the right words to explain her. I might have thousands words for everyone, but when It comes to her I just have three – I miss her.
I was just scrolling my news feeds on a social networking and I just noticed an update that she got engaged. In just few seconds, millions of thought were striking to my mind and I was not able to catch any one of them. I was just so lost in the memories of all those moments that we shared together.
“Congratulation for getting engaged”, I texted her.
“Thank you”, She replied.
We had nothing to talk about as we were talking after a long time so we just moulded our conversation in a very formal way. I was not liking being formal with her and i believe neither she was liking it. We were talking about life, family, friends and everything except the thing that we both wanted to talk about. May be, It was not the right time to talk about those emotional stuffs specially when I was cheering her up for getting engaged. I was being so dramatic to cover up all those emotions and feelings that I was trying to hide from her but I guess she was smart enough to caught me so she took the initiative and asked me,”Why we got separated and why It’s not you ?”
( two years back )
I posted an update on facebook related to my mom as I was really missing her. People were liking my post, trying to show some sympathy but she was the only one who texted me personally saying,”Are you Okey ?”
She asked me about my post and I shared everything with her. I was feeling good to share my feelings with her and in just few hours we were talking as we know each other from years. Just like we water a plant and it grow green with time, the same way we were watering our friendship with time and it was growing stronger day by day. We both used to call each other at night, we used to talk about life, friends, family and our past as we both had bad memories of our past.
One day we were just talking about our past and we both got lil emotional. At that moment I realized that I can’t see her sad or upset so that night I just cracked a stupid joke to make her smile and she actually smiled but she ended up saying,”You’re kutta”.
“You are such a hot kutti”, I replied and we both started to laugh.
Things were going so fine with us, we both wanted to go on a date someday but never had a chance to go on a date, but we used to imagine our dates in our dreamy world where we were so together. Somewhere in the middle of those conversations we both fell in love with each other.
I remember, one day she was really upset and I was trying all possible things to pamper her but nothing worked on her. Finally I tried a different way and I started to act as I’m angry and it really worked on her. She forgot her bad mood and she started to pamper me and I was really liking it. That night we lived our fantasies in our dreamy world. We shared some beautiful moments, and we were so lost in each other that we ended up our conversation with a morning wish.
That night changed everything between us, we started to feel something we never expected. I don’t know it was love or what but being with her started to feel more beautiful now, her conversation became like those chants for me that I’ll never forget ever in my life, everyday she was creating some new memories and I was just so scared to lose her. Somehow she was scared to lose me too and I promised her that no matter we’ll continue this relationship or not but we’ll never lose each other as friends. Each day we started to get more closer, our small conversation started to become endless ones. I used to sing for her on calls under moon light and stars, and she used to tell me her favorite songs.
As everything that rise have to fall down, and the same happened with us. She left India and shifted to Dubai. She got involved in her family business and I got more busy with my job and studies. Those endless conversation became small ones again, those late night conversations were not the same anymore and with each day we started to move away from each other. We were still in touch but once it twice in a week and after few months it became once or twice in a month.
We were not in touch like before but whenever we used to talk we never felt those distances between us. The dream date that we both wished to have never happened in person.
Sometime I feel what went wrong ? We car close to each other and then walked away like those waves of sea that touch the shore with all the energy and strength but even that wave can’t stick to the shore.it’s a party of sea, it always go back after touching the shore and it just leave some mark of it’s presence the same way she touched the shore of my heart, left few memories filled with love, friendship and emotions and then walked away without hurting me like others.
People look for the beauty of a person outside in thier body, looks or dressing sense but I found the beauty of relationship, emotions and feelings in her. I never met her but the charm of her presence in my heart can’t be compensated by any other feeling. She was beautiful in her own way and she is still beautiful with her thoughts and the way she treat people.
( Few days ago )
I received a random text from her, we were still talking like we used to be. We were still talking about that one day I’ll surely take her on date and she agreed.
May be I was not made for a relationship, or may be I was never good enough to handle a good relationship. She is engaged now and I lied to her that I got committed too. I don’t know why but I lied to her.
While writing about her I just realized – “People change, feelings fade but memories remain forever.”
And she is one of those beautiful memories of my life that I’m never going to forget.
One day… may be one day I’ll meet her and we’ll have our dream date in person.